Good Morning. I hope you all slept well and had sweet dreams. I want to thank those of you who left words of encouragement on my Tag Board and especially want to thank those of you who were there for me. I imagine, reading my posts from yesterday, I seem very fickle (maybe I am, deal with it! lol) and got what I deserved. I mean, I thought I wanted to break up but didn't really want lose someone that I care about. (guess that's what I get for thinking, lol) I hope that its normal to feel that way (if not, guess you'll just have to call me crazy). (Ok now, stop it - I didn't mean to literally call me crazy) I had hoped that him learning how his actions made me feel would make a difference to him. And yes, I really hoped that he did love me as he said and wanted to be with me enough to understand why the situation happened. But, alas, it didn't turn out that way. Shoot, I BEGGED him and didn't even make a comment when he said he had been out all night and was just getting home at 5pm. How many of you out there would have done that?? Sure any comment I made would have been out of line I imagine but since when did that stop people from saying something about something they don't like? Anyway - tonight is supposed to be "the key return," it's gonna be hard, I know, but I'll get through it.

(sighs)

I don't want this breakup because I do love him and want to be with him - I guess it'll get added to the many things in life that I have no control over but learn to live with. I don't regret swallowing my pride to try to salvage the relationship and certainly don't regret being with him. Every moment in our lives that we are loved is a gift. As corney as that sounds, it is true. It's when we are afraid of letting someone love us that we truely lose. Breakups happen. Just try to take something out of it positive and don't be too stubborn to try again. You never know - the one you won't give that chance to could be THE ONE.